She saw herself go into a department store and buy five spools of silk thread and three yards of gingham to make an apron for the cook."Shall I charge it， ma'am？"asked the clerk.As she walked out a lady whom she met greeted her cordially."Oh， where did you get the pattern for those sleeves， dear Mrs.Conant？" she said.At the corner a policeman helped her across the street and touched his helmet."Any callers？" she asked the maid when she reached home."Mrs.Waldron，" answered the maid， and the tqvo Misses Jenkinson." "Very well，" she said.
You may bring me a cup of tea， Maggie."
Mrs.Conant went to the door and called Angela， the old Peruvian woman."If Mateo is there send him to me."Mateo， a half-breed， shuffling and old but efficient， came.
"Is there a steamer or a vessel of any kind leaving this coast to-night or to-morrow that I can get passage on？" she asked.
Mateo considered.
"At Punta Reina， thirty miles down the coast， se駉ra，"he answered， "there is a small steamer loading with cinchona and dyewoods.She sails for San Francisco to-morrow at sunrise.So says my brother， who arrived in his sloop to-day， passing by Punta Reina.""You must take me in that sloop to that steamer to-night.Will you do that？""Perhaps -- " Mateo shrugged a suggestive shoul-der.Mrs.Conant took a handful of money from a drawer and gave it to him.
"Get the sloop ready behind the little point of land below the town，" she ordered."Get sailors， and be ready to sail at six o'clock.In half an hour bring a cart partly filled with straw into the patio here， and take my trunk to the sloop.There is more money yet.Now， hurry."For one time Mateo walked away without shuffling his feet.
"Angela，" cried Mrs.Conant， almost fiercely， "come and help me pack.I am going away.Out with this trunk.My clothes first.Stir yourself.Those dark dresses first.Hurry."From the first she did not waver from her decision.
Her view was clear and final.Her door had opened and let the world in.Her love for Merriam was not lessened； but it now appeared a hopeless and unrealizable thing.The visions of their future that had seemed so blissful and complete had vanished.She tried to assure herself that her renunciation was rather for his sake than for her own.Now that she was cleared of her burden --at least， technically -- would not his own weigh too heavily upon him？ If she should cling to him， would not the difference forever silently mar and corrode their happiness？
Thus she reasoned； but there were a thousand little voices calling to her that she could feel rather than hear， like the hum of distant， powerful machinery -- the little voices of the world， that， when raised in unison， can send their insistent call through the thickest door.
Once while packing， a brief shadow of the lotus dream came back to her.She held Merriam's picture to her heart with one hand， while she threw a pair of shoes into the trunk with her other.
At six o'clock Mateo returned and reported the sloop ready.He and his brother lifted the trunk into the cart， covered it with straw and conveyed it to the point of embarkation.From there they transferred it on board in the sloop's dory.Then Mateo returned for additional orders.
Mrs.Conant was ready.She had settled all business matters with Angela， and was impatiently waiting.She wore a long， loose black-silk duster that she often walked about in when the evenino's were chilly.On her head was a small round hat， and over it the apricot-coloured lace mantilla.
Dusk had quickly followed the short twilight.Mateo led her by dark and grass-grown streets toward the point behind which the sloop was anchored.On turning a corner they beheld the Hotel Orilla del Mar three streets away， nebulously aglow with its array of kerosene lamps.
Mrs.Conant paused， with streamin eyes."I must， I must see him once before I go，" she murmured in anguish.But even then she did not falter in her decision.
Quickly she invented a plan by which she might speak to him， and yet make her departure without his knowing.
She would walk past the hotel， ask some one to call him out and talk a few moments on some trivial excuse， leaving him expecting to see her at her home at seven.
She unpinned her hat and gave it to Mateo."Keep this， and wait here till I come，" she ordered.Then she draped the mantilla over her head as she usually did when walking after sunset， and went straight to the Orilla del Mar.
She was glad to see the bulky， white-clad figure of Tio Pancho standing alone on the gallery.
"Tio Pancho，" she said， with a charming smile， "may I trouble you to ask Mr.Merriam to come out for just a few moments that I may speak with him？"Tio Pancho bowed as an elephant bows.
"Buenas tardes， Se駉ra Conant，" he said， as a cavalier talks.And then he went on， less at his ease：
"But does not the se駉ra know that Se駉r Merriam sailed on the Pajaro for Panama at three o'clock of this afternoon？"
