Suddenly he was standing on short springy turf， on a summer evening when the slanting rays of the sun gilded the ground. The landscape that he was looking at recurred so often in his dreams that he was never fully certain whether or not he had seen it in the real world. In his waking thoughts he called it the Golden Country. It was an old， rabbit-bitten pasture， with a foot-track wandering across it and a molehill here and there. In the ragged hedge on the opposite side of the field the boughs of the elm trees were swaying very faintly in the breeze， their leaves just stirring in dense masses like women’s hair. Somewhere near at hand， though out of sight， there was a clear， slow-moving stream where dace were swimming in the pools under the willow trees.
The girl with dark hair was coming towards them across the field. With what seemed a single movement she tore off her clothes and flung them disdainfully aside. Her body was white and smooth， but it aroused no desire in him， indeed he barely looked at it. What overwhelmed him in that instant was admiration for the gesture with which she had thrown her clothes aside. With its grace and carelessness it seemed to annihilate a whole culture， a whole system of thought， as though Big Brother and the Party and the Thought Police could all be swept into nothingness by a single splendid movement of the arm. That too was a gesture belonging to the ancient time. Winston woke up with the word “Shakespeare” on his lips.
The telescreen was giving forth an ear-splitting whistle which continued on the same note for thirty seconds. It was nought seven fifteen， getting-up time for office workers.
Winston wrenched his body out of bed — naked， for a member of the Outer Party received only 3，000 clothing coupons annually， and a suit of pyjamas was 600 — and seized a dingy singlet and a pair of shorts that were lying across a chair. The Physical Jerks would begin in three minutes. The next moment he was doubled up by a violent coughing fit which nearly always attacked him soon after waking up. It emptied his lungs so completely that he could only begin breathing again by lying on his back and taking a series of deep gasps. His veins had swelled with the effort of the cough， and the varicose ulcer had started itching.
“Thirty to forty group！” yapped a piercing female voice. “ Thirty to forty group！ Take your places， please. Thirties to forties！”
Winston sprang to attention in front of the telescreen， upon which the image of a youngish woman， scrawny but muscular， dressed in tunic and gym-shoes， had already appeared.
“Arms bending and stretching！” she rapped out. “Take your time by me. One， two， three， four！ One， two， three， four！ Come on， comrades， put a bit of life into it！ One， two， three four！ One two， three， four！ ...”
The pain of the coughing fit had not quite driven out of Winston’s mind the impression made by his dream， and the rhythmic movements of the exercise restored it somewhat. As he mechanically shot his arms back and forth， wearing on his face the look of grim enjoyment which was considered proper during the Physical Jerks， he was struggling to think his way backward into the dim period of his early childhood. It was extraordinarily difficult. Beyond the late fifties everything faded. When there were no external records that you could refer to， even the outline of your own life lost its sharpness. You remembered huge events which had quite probably not happened， you remembered the detail of incidents without being able to recapture their atmosphere， and there were long blank periods to which you could assign nothing. Everything had been different then. Even the names of countries， and their shapes on the map， had been different. Airstrip One， for instance， had not been so called in those days： it had been called England or Britain， though London， he felt fairly certain， had always been called London.
Winston could not definitely remember a time when his country had not been at war， but it was evident that there had been a fairly long interval of peace during his childhood， because one of his early memories was of an air raid which appeared to take everyone by surprise. Perhaps it was the time when the atomic bomb had fallen on Colchester. He did not remember the raid itself， but he did remember his father’s hand clutching his own as they hurried down， down， down into some place deep in the earth， round and round a spiral staircase which rang under his feet and which finally so wearied his legs that he began whimpering and they had to stop and rest. His mother， in her slow， dreamy way， was following a long way behind them. She was carrying his baby sister — or perhaps it was only a bundle of blankets that she was carrying： he was not certain whether his sister had been born then. Finally they had emerged into a noisy， crowded place which he had realized to be a Tube station.
There were people sitting all over the stone-flagged floor， and other people， packed tightly together， were sitting on metal bunks， one above the other. Winston and his mother and father found themselves a place on the floor， and near them an old man and an old woman were sitting side by side on a bunk. The old man had on a decent dark suit and a black cloth cap pushed back from very white hair： his face was scarlet and his eyes were blue and full of tears. He reeked of gin. It seemed to breathe out of his skin in place of sweat， and one could have fancied that the tears welling from his eyes were pure gin. But though slightly drunk he was also suffering under some grief that was genuine and unbearable. In his childish way Winston grasped that some terrible thing， something that was beyond forgiveness and could never be remedied， had just happened. It also seemed to him that he knew what it was. Someone whom the old man loved — a little granddaughter， perhaps had been killed. Every few minutes the old man kept repeating：
“We didn’t ought to ’ave trusted ’em. I said so， Ma， didn’t I？ That’s what comes of trusting ’em. I said so all along. We didn’t ought to ’ave trusted the buggers.”But which buggers they didn"t ought to have trusted Winston could not now remember.
