登陆注册
15440300000049

第49章 CHAPTER 4 Narcissus Off Duty(12)

Mavrone go Gudyo He to be in the joyful and red battle Amongst the chieftains and they doing great deeds of valor His life to go from him It is the chords of my own soul would be loosed.

A Vich Deelish My heart is in the heart of my son And my life is in his life surely A man can be twice young In the life of his sons only.

Jia du Vaha Alanav May the Son of God be above him and beneath him, before him and behind him May the King of the elements cast a mist over the eyes of the King of Foreign, May the Queen of the Graces lead him by the hand the way he can go through the midst of his enemies and they not seeing him May Patrick of the Gael and Collumb of the Churches and the five thousand Saints of Erin be better than a shield to him And he go into the fight.

Och Ochone."

Amory-AmoryI feel, somehow, that this is all; one or both of us is not going to last out this war.... I've been trying to tell you how much this reincarnation of myself in you has meant in the last few years ... curiously alike we are ... curiously unlike.

Good-by, dear boy, and God be with you. THAYER DARCY.

EMBARKING AT NIGHT

Amory moved forward on the deck until he found a stool under an electric light. He searched in his pocket for note-book and pencil and then began to write, slowly, laboriously:

"We leave to-night...

Silent, we filled the still, deserted street, A column of dim gray, And ghosts rose startled at the muffled beat Along the moonless way;

The shadowy shipyards echoed to the feet That turned from night and day.

And so we linger on the windless decks, See on the spectre shore Shades of a thousand days, poor gray-ribbed wrecks...

Oh, shall we then deplore Those futile years!

See how the sea is white!

The clouds have broken and the heavens burn To hollow highways, paved with gravelled light The churning of the waves about the stern Rises to one voluminous nocturne, ...We leave to-night."

A letter from Amory, headed "Brest, March 11th, 1919," to Lieutenant T. P. D'Invilliers, Camp Gordon, Ga.

DEAR BAUDELAIRE:

We meet in Manhattan on the 30th of this very mo.; we then proceed to take a very sporty apartment, you and I and Alec, who is at me elbow as I write. I don't know what I'm going to do but I have a vague dream of going into politics. Why is it that the pick of the young Englishmen from Oxford and Cambridge go into politics and in the U. S. A. we leave it to the muckers?raised in the ward, educated in the assembly and sent to Congress, fat-paunched bundles of corruption, devoid of "both ideas and ideals" as the debaters used to say. Even forty years ago we had good men in politics, but we, we are brought up to pile up a million and "show what we are made of." Sometimes I wish I'd been an Englishman; American life is so damned dumb and stupid and healthy.

Since poor Beatrice died I'll probably have a little money, but very darn little. I can forgive mother almost everything except the fact that in a sudden burst of religiosity toward the end, she left half of what remained to be spent in stained-glass windows and seminary endowments. Mr. Barton, my lawyer, writes me that my thousands are mostly in street railways and that the said Street R.R.s are losing money because of the five-cent fares.

Imagine a salary list that gives $350 a month to a man that can't read and write!yet I believe in it, even though I've seen what was once a sizable fortune melt away between speculation, extravagance, the democratic administration, and the income taxmodern, that's me all over, Mabel.

At any rate we'll have really knock-out roomsyou can get a job on some fashion magazine, and Alec can go into the Zinc Company or whatever it is that his people ownhe's looking over my shoulder and he says it's a brass company, but I don't think it matters much, do you? There's probably as much corruption in zinc-made money as brass-made money. As for the well-known Amory, he would write immortal literature if he were sure enough about anything to risk telling any one else about it. There is no more dangerous gift to posterity than a few cleverly turned platitudes.

Tom, why don't you become a Catholic? Of course to be a good one you'd have to give up those violent intrigues you used to tell me about, but you'd write better poetry if you were linked up to tall golden candlesticks and long, even chants, and even if the American priests are rather burgeois, as Beatrice used to say, still you need only go to the sporty churches, and I'll introduce you to Monsignor Darcy who really is a wonder.

Kerry's death was a blow, so was Jesse's to a certain extent. And I have a great curiosity to know what queer corner of the world has swallowed Burne. Do you suppose he's in prison under some false name? I confess that the war instead of making me orthodox, which is the correct reaction, has made me a passionate agnostic.

The Catholic Church has had its wings clipped so often lately that its part was timidly negligible, and they haven't any good writers any more. I'm sick of Chesterton.

I've only discovered one soldier who passed through the much-advertised spiritual crisis, like this fellow, Donald Hankey, and the one I knew was already studying for the ministry, so he was ripe for it. I honestly think that's all pretty much rot, though it seemed to give sentimental comfort to those at home; and may make fathers and mothers appreciate their children.

This crisis-inspired religion is rather valueless and fleeting at best. I think four men have discovered Paris to one that discovered God.

But usyou and me and Alecoh, we'll get a Jap butler and dress for dinner and have wine on the table and lead a contemplative, emotionless life until we decide to use machine-guns with the property ownersor throw bombs with the Bolshevik God! Tom, I hope something happens. I'm restless as the devil and have a horror of getting fat or falling in love and growing domestic.

The place at Lake Geneva is now for rent but when I land I'm going West to see Mr. Barton and get some details. Write me care of the Blackstone, Chicago.

S'ever, dear Boswell, SAMUEL JOHNSON.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 听过很多道理仍然过不好这一生

    听过很多道理仍然过不好这一生

    有人说听过很多道理,为什么仍然过不好这一生。
  • 春秋后记

    春秋后记

    仙之国度,神之弃子,有仙人一怒酿浮尸血海;凡尘人间,天地法则,有宗师拔剑开天地沟壑;三秋五载,世俗之事,有夫子舌战破百万雄兵。且听,有声慷慨激昂,高歌而泣;且闻,古今风流韵事,如歌如梦;且看,世间英雄豪杰,意气风发。乱世当出英雄,英雄当是年少。这里是快意恩仇的江湖,也是人心角逐的庙堂,更是法则万象的修真世界。
  • 道幻天劫

    道幻天劫

    道幻灭,天劫生。一个世界毁灭,便是一个大道幻灭,那时天劫降临,生机尽断,礼坏乐崩,活着的所有生灵只能在仓皇逃命的路上,幻灭。因为大道都已经幻灭了。天劫降临时,世界走入最后的灭绝期,什么都无法挽回,天地复归于死寂。道幻天劫究竟意味着什么?道幻天劫之后呢?为了一探究竟,拥有足够智慧,却肆意挥霍,不知自身渺小的人类成为了最佳的试验品。一群大唐的侠客被卷入了悲剧的轮回。
  • 萌萌狐仙来报恩

    萌萌狐仙来报恩

    意外从古代穿越来的狐仙,正巧砸到了一家奶茶店里,可那萌萌哒的萝莉店长好像不是平常人!萌妹子居然会独自一人看鬼片!狐仙觉得,现在的妹子几乎没有萌的了......
  • 命苍天

    命苍天

    岁月埋葬了过去的秘密,一切被时光掩埋,一个少年从边陲小地开始,一路高歌,柳阳:“我誓要站在巅峰之地,纵观千古,吾命苍天!”
  • 谁记得那流失的岁月

    谁记得那流失的岁月

    我是来自与农村的高中生与她相识相恋,后来。。。。。又分手
  • 污宝鬼匠

    污宝鬼匠

    我叫叶边,今年二十六岁,出生在污宝世家,祖上世代都是做污宝生意的。具体要追溯到多少代是没个准头了,反正这么说吧,就我眼么前记账桌上摆的这坛子闷棺酒就是我们祖上有一代压进西夏窟陵的冰葬棺里用寒尸闷养的宝花酒,这酒是到了清末年间我太爷爷亲自进去启出来的,当时也是我爷爷第一次跟着太爷爷去启污宝,所以这酒我爷爷不卖。这坛子宝花酒我二叔开过一次,当时我不到两分钟就被这酒香熏醉了,等我醒来的时候已经是一天两夜之后了,不过打那次起,我就千杯不醉,酒量几乎是海量。平常这酒坛上头是用一块腐皮盖住的,这块腐皮上烙着一朵八尾狐花,我爷爷说这是八尾封香,我就问我爷爷八尾封香是啥,,,
  • 狐妖小红娘之绝世之爱

    狐妖小红娘之绝世之爱

    穿越来到狐妖小红娘的世界,身怀九尾、写轮眼与所有忍术的他,为了爱而逆天而行,改变命运,看他创造属于他的百年绝世之爱。
  • 五代争霸录

    五代争霸录

    唐朝末年,宦官专权,军阀割据,人们生活在水深火热之中。时,中原大旱,王仙芝、黄巢带领活不下去的农民起义,王仙芝因为意志不够坚定被唐王朝剿灭,黄巢继续带领起义军转战大半个中国,摧毁了大唐王朝的权威,黄巢进入长安,各地军阀风起云涌,军阀在讨伐农民军的过程中不断壮大,最后从农民军里分离出来的军阀朱温灭亡了唐王朝,中原地区进入五代交替争霸的时代。
  • 暗黑之佣兵传奇

    暗黑之佣兵传奇

    重生于暗黑世界,在屠戮怪物中成长,在尸山血海中前行,是英雄或是佣兵,真豪杰,岂看出处!友情、爱情、善良而平凡的众生,吾将全力守护,虽然万千神魔,吾亦横刀笑对……