She rang the convent bell.The well-known sound Smote on her heart,and bowed her to the ground,And she,who had not wept for long dry years,Felt the strange rush of unaccustomed tears;Terror and anguish seemed to check her breath,And stop her heart.Oh God!could this be death?
Crouching against the iron gate,she laid Her weary head against the bars,and prayed:
But nearer footsteps drew,then seemed to wait:
And then she heard the opening of the grate,And saw the withered face,on which awoke Pity and sorrow,as the portress spoke,And asked the stranger's bidding:"Take me in,"She faltered,"Sister Monica,from sin,And sorrow,and despair,that will not cease;Oh,take me in,and let me die in peace!"
With soothing words the Sister bade her wait,Until she brought the key to unbar the gate.
The beggar tried to thank her as she lay,And heard the echoing footsteps die away.
But what soft voice was that which sounded near,And stirred strange trouble in her heart to hear?
She raised her head;she saw--she seemed to know -A face that came from long,long years ago:
Herself;yet not as when she fled away,The young and blooming novice,fair and gay,But a grave woman,gentle and serene:
The outcast knew it--WHAT SHE MIGHT HAVE BEEN.
But,as she gazed and gazed,a radiance bright Filled all the place with strange and sudden light;The Nun was there no longer,but instead,A figure with a circle round its head,A ring of glory;and a face,so meek,So soft,so tender ...Angela strove to speak,And stretched her hands out,crying,"Mary mild,Mother of mercy,help me!--help your child!"And Mary answered,"From thy bitter past,Welcome,my child!oh,welcome home at last!
I filled thy place.Thy flight is known to none,For all thy daily duties I have done;Gathered thy flowers,and prayed,and sung,and slept;Didst thou not know,poor child,THY PLACE WAS KEPT?
Kind hearts are here;yet would the tenderest one Have limits to its mercy:God has none.
And man's forgiveness may be true and sweet,But yet he stoops to give it.More complete Is Love that lays forgiveness at thy feet,And pleads with thee to raise it.Only Heaven Means CROWNED,not VANQUISHED,when it says 'Forgiven!'"Back hurried Sister Monica;but where Was the poor beggar she left lying there?
Gone;and she searched in vain,and sought the place For that wan woman with the piteous face:
But only Angela at the gateway stood,Laden with hawthorn blossoms from the wood.
And never did a day pass by again,But the old portress,with a sigh of pain,Would sorrow for her loitering:with a prayer That the poor beggar,in her wild despair,Might not have come to any ill;and when She ended,"God forgive her!"humbly then Did Angela bow her head,and say "Amen!"How pitiful her heart was!all could trace Something that dimmed the brightness of her face After that day,which none had seen before;Not trouble--but a shadow--nothing more.
Years passed away.Then,one dark day of dread Saw all the sisters kneeling round a bed,Where Angela lay dying;every breath Struggling beneath the heavy hand of death.
But suddenly a flush lit up her cheek,She raised her wan right hand,and strove to speak.
In sorrowing love they listened;not a sound Or sigh disturbed the utter silence round.
The very tapers'flames were scarcely stirred,In such hushed awe the sisters knelt and heard.
And through that silence Angela told her life:
Her sin,her flight;the sorrow and the strife,And the return;and then clear,low and calm,"Praise God for me,my sisters;"and the psalm Rang up to heaven,far and clear and wide,Again and yet again,then sank and died;While her white face had such a smile of peace,They saw she never heard the music cease;And weeping sisters laid her in her tomb,Crowned with a wreath of perfumed hawthorn bloom.
And thus the Legend ended.It may be Something is hidden in the mystery,Besides the lesson of God's pardon shown,Never enough believed,or asked,or known.
Have we not all,amid life's petty strife,Some pure ideal of a noble life That once seemed possible?Did we not hear The flutter of its wings,and feel it near,And just within our reach?It was.And yet We lost it in this daily jar and fret,And now live idle in a vague regret.
But still OUR PLACE IS KEPT,and it will wait,Ready for us to fill it,soon or late:
No star is ever lost we once have seen,We always may be what we might have been.
Since Good,though only thought,has life and breath,God's life--can always be redeemed from death;And evil,in its nature,is decay,And any hour can blot it all away;The hopes that lost in some far distance seem,May be the truer life,and this the dream.
